Polar Opposite

I'm strong or weak.
I'm happy or sad.
I'm patient or frustrated.
I'm healthy or sick.
I'm energized or exhausted.

I can or I can't.
There is no middle ground.
There is no in between.
There is no grey.
It's just black or white.

Mentally and physically I'm wiped out.
Friends are upset because I changed plans.
They just don't understand that
just because I was perfectly fine yesterday doesn't
mean I'm well today.

Case in point, last Saturday I was fine and
was making plans for this weekend.
This weekend I found myself getting
juiced up intravenously with Vitamin C
because by Wednesday I was sick.

I wasn't sick and then four days later, I was.
It isn't quite fair to others. And when
they fuss that I've postponed
it hurts me more than it hurts them.
How do I make them understand?

They just don't get it.
They won't get it.
They pretend they do,
but then act all hurt when
you say, "not today."

I'm strong or weak.
I'm happy or sad.
I'm patient or frustrated.
I'm healthy or sick.
I'm energized or exhausted.

I can or I can't.
There is no middle ground.
There is no in between.
There is no grey.
It's just black or white.

Somewhere in the middle of all of this
someone has got to understand.
Doctors have got to put a stop to the ignorance.
Stop misleading the public
that Lyme is easy to treat.

It's not. I'm living proof.
Here we are 15 years and 2 months later
I'm still struggling to
balance the line between
living a life and living a life with Lyme.

Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow.
They all look different.
Yesterday was bad.
Today is okay, but
Tomorrow ....

I'm strong or weak.
I'm happy or sad.
I'm patient or frustrated.
I'm healthy or sick.
I'm energized or exhausted.

I can or I can't.
There is no middle ground.
There is no in between.
There is no grey.
It's just black or white.